Rebecca West: Words & Music

Our Online Romance
by Rebecca and Bob West with the Holy Spirit

Chapter 18

Face to Face

From: Bob
Subject: It's me again...
Date: May 7, 2009, 2:07 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

Good afternoon, Sweetheart!

I'm glad you like my laugh. It is because of you that I have it again. I think it was when you started writing to me, or shortly thereafter, that I began laughing again. During Sylvia's long, critical illness, while I had stopped everything else I was doing in order to take care of her 24/7, there was very little for me to laugh about. After she passed, I dealt with exhaustion, grief, and depression. I returned to my work on OFC, and it kept me and my mind busy, but there was little, if anything, I found to smile about, much less laugh. I seldom left home, where I was here by myself and my work. There was a time when I prayed, "Lord, I don't feel at home here on earth anymore. I would like to leave here and be with you." Then, very quickly, I said, "Never mind, Lord. I don't want to get there and have you say to me, 'Bob, I brought you Home because you asked me to, but I really wish you had been willing to stay on earth and finish the work I have for you to do.'"

Then you started e-mailing me and almost from the very beginning you made me laugh. Out loud! You're a funny lady. Before long you had me trained to smile when I saw that I had mail from you, and I was ready to laugh out loud as soon as you said something funny. And you usually did have something funny to say.

Your love for me has brought me back to life! I have energy now that I had lost for a while. Renewed energy! When I go to sleep at night, I look forward to waking up in the morning. I was young for my age before. I'm even younger now.

Thank you, darling, for making me feel so happy, young again, and full of life!

I still like your idea of us relaxing and taking life easy and just enjoying being together. The idea I had of us doing that book together may not fit in with that life style. But I guess it could. As long as there are no deadlines. Work now and then can be fun too. I tell you what -- let's just snuggle together in the passenger seat and let the Lord do the driving and take us wherever He has in mind. :-) If I start giving Him directions, you set me straight. Okay?

I'm going to close now. I think the folks in Hawaii have had time to get out of bed and have started their day, their work, whatever. I'm going to call Robynne and wish her a happy birthday. I might also tell her that her Dad is in love. In fact, I know I will. Suzanne plans to call her tonight and she asked me this morning if she could tell Robynne my news. I told her yes, of course.

Bye, bye, sweetheart, for now...

Loving you with all my heart,

From: Rebecca
Subject: Re: It's me again...
Date: May 7, 2009, 3:27 PM EDT
To: Bob

Hello my darling Bob -----

I read about the book idea ----- Our Love Story --- did not have a chance to reply until now.... I love that idea!! It's brilliant!! Just when I think I can't love you more ---- I get another e-mail from you and I love you even more!!!!!!! We will relax --- enjoy each other ---- work on our book that is the most romantic love story on earth! That was from the Lord, sweetheart. I love it!

I am glad I make you laugh ----- :-) I promise to keep you laughing and happy!!!!!

After you called me this morning, I wrote in my daytimer that you had called and I put a big heart around the date ---- the first time we heard each other's voices ..... how wonderful and beautiful and romantic. Then I kissed the page in my daytimer. And guess what else I did, baby!! I wrote my name -- Rebecca West !!!!! :-)

Thank you, my Bob, for giving me all of yourself, your name and all your love.

Then my sister called the church and I answered and she knew it was me and she said, "Hello Rebecca West." I am elated, thrilled, and so very happy, baby.

It is getting busy here. I will write more a little later. You have the warmest, most wonderful voice I have ever heard. I love my sweetheart with all of my heart....

All of my love, hugs and kisses :-) :-)

Your Sunshine Rebecca's Red Rose

From: Bob
Subject: Re: It's me again...
Date: Thursday, May 7, 2009, 3:42 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

Hello Rebecca West!

What a beautiful name! For a beautiful lady! (A beautiful musketeer too!)

We have lots to talk about and plans to make, so I don't want to get ahead of myself, but I have been thinking about something that I think would be okay to go ahead and mention. I have been thinking that you might want your brother-in-law Fred or nephew Mark to perform the ceremony. Have you thought that far ahead? We could get married there at River of Life Family Church and come here to live. And somewhere in there we could have a honeymoon planned. What do you think about Florida for a honeymoon location? My son David, my brother Gaylon, my sisters Linda and Janie, their families, and other family live down there. I would like for them to meet you, so we could plan that, but also pick a place somewhere down there where we could have some alone time for our honeymoon. Just an idea. Something to think about.

I mentioned having the wedding over there among your family and church and friends to Suzanne and she quickly said that she could go over there for it.

Just thought I'd mention what I've been thinking about.

Love, Bob the blessed one

PS. Are we having fun yet?

From: Rebecca
Subject: Re: It's me again...
Date: May 7, 2009, 4:14 PM EDT
To: Bob

My sweet Bob ----

You are wonderful ---- more wonderful than I ever dreamed.
Your plan is perfect, my sweet Bob.
All of it!
I love you, love, love you, my honey!!!! Yes, yes, and yes!!!
A thousand kisses!!!!!

Rebecca's Red Rose REBECCA WEST :-)

From: Bob
Subject: Bob, the happiest man in the world!
Date: Thursday, May 7, 2009, 4:41 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

My sunshine: REBECCA WEST,

Just when I think I can't be any more blessed and any happier, I get another e-mail from the sweetest girl in the whole wide world. THANKS HONEY!!!

I have some other things to do now. In fact, I need to respond to a few e-mails from others that I received a few days ago. Also, I need to make me a list of things to do in town tomorrow. So I think i will come down off the clouds now for a little while. Bye for now, sweetheart...

Happy Bob, the Blessed

From: Bob
Subject: Robynne
Date: Thursday, May 7, 2009, 2:32 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

Hi Honey!

I just called Robynne, sang "Happy Birthday" to her, and then told her my news. She sounded excited, and happy about it, and told me "Congratulations!" She said that she knew her Mom would approve. She was at work, so I didn't talk to her very long. I know that she and Suzanne will have a lot to talk about when Suzanne calls her tonight.

I love you so much, Sweetheart!

Happy Bob

From: Rebecca
Subject: Re: Robynne
Date: Thursday, May 7, 2009, 4:01:10 PM EDT
To: Bob

Rebecca's Red Rose To my Happy Bob!! :-)

I have never

known the joy that I have now, my love. You are magnificent and fabulous.....

I am so glad you called Robynne!! Wonderful!! Those girls will be talking about it all night!! :) I am so glad they are happy for you.

More later, sweetie!!

All of my love ------ gentle hugs --- lots and lots of kisses for my baby!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunshine Rebecca's Red Rose (I am so happy I don't know what to do with myself :-) and we have only begun)

From: Bob
Subject: Goodnight Princess
Date: Thursday, May 7, 2009, 10:08:01 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

Hi Sweetie!

I just finished watching a movie. It is 10 PM now. I'm very tired. So I am going to bed.

Goodnight dearest. Pretend I am holding you in my arms, and drift off to sleep and have sweet dreams.

I love you very, very much!!!

All my love, hugs, and kisses,

Your devoted servant, Bob

From: Rebecca
Subject: To my darling, the one I love
Date: Thursday, May 7, 2009, 11:19:31 PM EDT
To: Bob

Hi Baby!

I just walked in the door --- from the ladies banquet and got your sweet goodnight e-mail. I adore you so much, and love you. Bob, you are so thoughtful and kind and loving, and I love it that you took the initiative to make some plans. You are totally more than wonderful, my sweetheart. I told Barb and Fred about your e-mail to me concerning some plans, and they were elated, as I was!!!!! I can't wait to go shopping for what I am going to wear. I want to look ravishing for you!!! We will have so much to talk about when I get there. I can hardly wait!! I long to be where you are -----

When I was parking in the parking lot at church this evening for the banquet ----- guess what song came on the radio!!! "Have I told you lately that I love you"!!! I had to sit in my car and listen to that song before I went in. So I had tears of joy in my eyes of course when I went inside. It was a new version of it though, but I could hear you saying that to me. :-) Thank you my sweetheart for singing that to me.

Since the banquet was an "honoring mothers dinner", different women were honoring the ones they wanted to honor. So I took the golden opportunity to honor my fabulous sister, who I love so much ... as my sister and as our pastor's mother. Then a little later Barb took the microphone and honored me!!! She said I was "her rock", and how much she loved me. Then one of the ladies of the church surprised me by honoring me, and compared me to my mother ----- her elegance and graciousness, and how I was carrying on the beautiful heritage of my mother with the beauty that she carried. I felt so honored and blessed. Of course, we all hugged and cried!!! :-)

Baby ---- all I can really think about is us, and our wonderful wedding ..... and how blessed we are to have each other. We can talk about everything when I get there ..... can you tell I am excited?????!!! I am going to make you the happiest man in the whole world, although you said you already were. :-) I am the happiest woman in the world!!!

I am going to bed now too. It is 10 p.m. and I am sleepy. It is raining slightly ----- a good night to snuggle with my honey!!!!!!! Yes, my love, I will dream that I am in your arms ---- right where I want to be .... close to you.

Good night, my wonderful Bob. You have made all of my dreams come true.

All of my love and devotion, with hugs and lots of kisses, baby!!
Our honeymoon will be the most romantic in the whole world!!!! :-) and I am looking forward to meeting all of your family!

All of my love ----
Your princess Rebecca's Red Rose (Rebecca West)

From: Bob
Subject: Re: To my honey --- my new short article
Date: May 8, 2009, 10:23:19 AM EDT
To: Rebecca

Honey, "A New Day Dawning" is a wonderful article. I continue to be so amazed, and pleased, by your devotion to our Heavenly Daddy and Jesus, and how you allow them to speak through you. Truly inspired writing. I feel so honored that He trusts me enough to share you with me. I promise Him that I will love, honor, and serve you on His behalf. And on mine.

Thanks for sharing. I'm anxious for you to get here. We have so much to talk about.

Now I'm hungry. Well, yes, I'm hungry for you, but I'm also hungry for breakfast. So I guess I should go fix me some. (I'm really looking forward to eating YOUR cooking.)

Bye for a little while, precious Rebecca. I love you, dearest!


From: Rebecca
Subject: To My Honey!!
Date: May 8, 2009, 11:12 AM EDT
To: Bob

A quick note ----- there is a severe thunder storm warning out and it is lightning out ---- so I may need to unplug my computer for a little while......

All of my love ----- :-) sweet kisses coming your way sweetie!!!!!
Your Princess Rebecca's Red Rose

From: Bob
Subject: Re: To My Honey!! (TOO!)
Date: Friday, May 8, 2009, 10:48 AM
To: Rebecca

My sweet Rebecca West,

Thanks for the kisses!!!

There is a thunder storm here too! The rain is pouring down, and it is almost dark outside (even at noon). I have my external backup disks unplugged just in case. We must be having the same storm. Must be a big one!

Your Prince Charming :-)

BTW: Last night after I went to bed I imagined that I was holding you in my arms. And when I woke up this morning, you were still there! :-)

From: Rebecca
Subject: To my Prince Charming :-)
Date: Friday, May 8, 2009, 3:10 PM
To: Bob

Hello Prince Charming!!

I think the storm has passed here now. The sky is getting lighter and the rain has stopped. :-)

Bob, the way you cherish me, and love me, just makes my heart sing. You truly are my prince charming! :-) You are everything my heart desires. I keep hearing your voice, and I love it --- I love you. :-)

Last night when I went to bed -- I took a tablet with me and started making a list of everything we can talk about!!! We will have so much fun tallking and planning our wedding!! :-) (I love saying that.) I promise that I will not take a tablet to bed with us after we are married (ha ha ha) :-) :-)

Sweetheart, do not be concerned about the groceries... I am bringing coffee, and a few snacks for the road. I eat cottage cheese, yogurt, strawberries, simple things. We can get what we want after we are there, whenever it is convenient to go to the store. No pressure. No hurry. I think I am losing my appetite ---- I am in love with the most wonderful man in the world. You are a magnificent man --- all mine. I am so blessed too!!

I just had a light lunch and will do some laundry now.
I love you dearly, my prince charming!!! Just a few days and I will see the man of my dreams. You are already here in my heart ------
Loving you is the best thing in the world ----- :-)

Rebecca West Rebecca's Red Rose

From: Bob
Subject: Re: To my Prince Charming :-)
Date: Friday, May 8, 2009, 5:22:51 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

Hello, my Princess!

I just got back from town. After the rain and thunder stopped and the sun came back out, it was 1:30 and I still hadn't had lunch and I needed to make a trip to town, so I decided to go by Julie's Subs & More and get a hot dog ATW with chips and a Dr. Pepper. I don't eat a hot dog very often since the doctor told me that the salt was not good for me. But they are so good that once in a great while I have yielded to the temptation of eating one. But I think your diet is one I should be on too. Maybe your example and with you here to encourage me, I can eat healthier. In my loneliness, grief, and depression I guess I used food for friendship, especially the wrong kind. I'm doing much better now, though. Lately, since I've fallen head over heels in love with you, I don't hear food calling my name.

When I was sitting down at my table, Julie came to take my order and she asked, "Is your girl friend with you?"

"She will be here next week." I answered.

I just got some bananas, eggs, milk, apple juice, and bacon at the store today.

I called and talked with my granddaughter Larissa, Suzanne's oldest, today. She is 29 and still waiting for the Lord to bring Mr. Right to her. She lives in Missoula, Montana, and works at the hospital as a nurse in Neonatal ICU taking care of pre-mature babies. Larissa is very special and loves Jesus with all her heart. She is an outdoors person and has hiked the entire length of the Appalachian Trail twice. She is excited that I am in love, could hear my excitement over the phone, and is looking forward to meeting you. She said she will come to the wedding if she can. Once we decide on a date, she will be able to see if she can arrange time off and the trip. One of the reasons I wanted to let Larissa know about us is that I wanted to let her know that God gave me the same name to give you that He gave her -- "Sunshine". Years ago the name I gave the character in my Theophilus comics that represents Larissa is Sunshine. She was not aware of it, but years later when she was deciding upon a trail name to use with her hiking buddies, she thought of "Sunshine" and that has stayed with her. I know it is the name that God selected for her. Then that morning a few days ago a strong thought entered my mind, and moved by it I started your e-mail "Good morning, Sunshine!" Then I stopped and looked at what I had written, and thought, "That's Larissa's name. I can't use that." So I erased it. But the Lord told me to use it, that it was one of the names He has given me for you. So I typed it again. I'm so glad you like it. It is yours, given to me from our Daddy. Larissa agreed. She is glad you have that in common.

I love the names you give me too. I love everything you say to me. YES, I LOVE YOU!!!

Your comment about laundry reminds me. I need to do a load of laundry too.

Bette told me a while back that you're going to spend the night at her condo Sunday, so you can get an early start Monday morning.

Thank you darling for being mine. I am the happiest guy in the whole wide world. I'm going to close now so I can send this to you without further delay, and also so I can do my chores. I love you, sweet baby. Thank you for loving me, and for letting me hear your heart. I don't have to guess with you, and I love that!

My Princess, I love you with all my heart!

Your Prince Charming :-)

From: Rebecca
Subject: Hi Honey!!!
Date: Friday, May 8, 2009, 7:58 PM EDT
To: Bob

Hi my honey!!
The phones are ringing off the hook ----- everyone is finding out about "us"!! :-) All of my friends from the church are calling me ---- so happy for me! I knew that once a couple of them knew, everyone would know in a short time. :-)

Yes, sweetheart, I am going to Bette's late Sunday evening after I have lunch with Barb and Fred --- then we will get an early start on Monday morning like you said. I guess I forgot to tell you, so I am glad you mentioned it. I am going to leave my car at Barb and Fred's house with the keys. I also notified this apartment office that I would be gone for a week. They like to know when anyone is going to be gone for a length of time, just for safety sake.

I will be so excited. I will be ready to leave at 4 a.m.!!!!! Bette wants me to help drive, so I am going to drive her car around a little Sunday evening to get use to the car! I am not use to a lot of highway driving, but I did tell her that I would give her a break from driving as much as I could. I hope I do okay, sweetheart. I am just a little nervous about that, but I know God will help me. I told her I would hold Patzi and she (Bette) could drive. :-) I have been eating too much too, baby!! I have got to stop! That is what happens when we are by ourselves isn't it!! We can help each other. I do like hot dogs too!! (ha ha) We are so in love -- we will forget to eat. :-)

I am relaxing for the evening -- the sun is shining now and it is beautiful outside. The whole world is beautiful because you love me and I love you. Isn't it something what love does to a person!? It is going to be so wonderful to talk and plan --- between the hugs! We will have so much fun! I can just hear us laughing together, talking and planning!

I hope you get more rest tonight, my love. And me too.
Thank you, baby, for all that you are to me.
Love you so much ---

Your sweetheart --- and wife to be...
Rebecca West Rebecca's Red Rose (aka Princess --- and Sunshine)

From: Bob
Subject: Re: Hi Honey!!!
Date: Friday, May 8, 2009, 10:27:34 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

Hi Sweetheart!

I miss you, Baby! I'm glad the time of your arrival is getting closer. Did I give you Suzanne's contact info in case you need to get in touch with me and can't? Like in the case of an emergency, either here or there? I have Fred's home and church numbers. I'll go ahead and give you Suzanne's information just in case you don't have it.

How exciting for you (and for me) that you're getting calls about "us"! I love it that you share things like that.

I will be praying that your guardian angel will help you with the driving. And help Bette too. I'm glad you can help her with that, especially since she has been sick and may not have her strength back. But be very careful, Honey, especially since you're not use to driving something big like the Tahoe. It will be different from driving "Little Blue". But you will do okay. So will Bette.

I'm glad you're leaving early on Monday morning so that you can get through that Louisville traffic before (or after) rush hour (which I assume all big cities have and it looks like I-64 runs straight through the city). I just looked at the map again and apparently I-264 provides a by-pass around the worse congestion. But Bette will know.

Yes, we can help each other eat less and get healthier. I would like to lose 20 pounds or more (maybe even 25 or 30), mostly around my waist.

That "lingerie" party Barbara is going to give you sounds EXCITING!!! I'm not going to say anymore about that. I'm liable to be quoted. (But you can thank Barbara for me. :-)

I'm really looking forward to being your snuggle bunny. :-) You certainly know how to whet my imagination! (Want to move the date of the wedding up?! Just kidding.) (Be patient, Bob!)

I called Suzanne a little while ago to find out what time she will pick me up tomorrow. I wanted to see if I have time to go to the recycle center before we leave for SC to visit Fred's parents. Suzanne said Larissa called her. I asked if she mentioned my call. She said yes. Larissa said she "has never heard Granddad sound so 'giddy!'" :-)

Are we having fun yet?!!! :-)

I will say goodnight now, Rebecca West (what a beautiful name you have! I love it. I love you. And I miss you.) Snuggle up with me in your imagination and have a wonderful night. You make me so happy, Baby! "Have I told you lately that I love you..." (You know the rest.)

Goodnight precious darling Queen of my heart,

Your Prince Charming

From: Rebecca
Subject: Sunshine
Date: Saturday, May 9, 2009, 6:17 AM EDT
To: Bob

Good Morning Prince Charming!
Have a wonderful day!
I love you with all of my heart.
I can hardly wait to see you ----
Have fun today! :-)
A kiss and a hug ====
Sunshine Rebecca's Red Rose loving you is easy :-) my prince charming!

From: Bob
Subject: Re: Sunshine
Date: Saturday, May 9, 2009, 7:33 AM EDT
To: Rebecca

Good morning, Sunshine!!!!!

You brighten my day! My night too!

Here is a hug and a kiss to start our day with. I was awake much of the night thinking about you. Thinking about us, actually! And listening to the Lord, so I will know what to do next to bless you. We have so much to talk about when you get here. I'm glad you can hardly wait to see me, because that's the way I feel about you. Loving you is easy, too. I'm so glad and so happy that you love me. THANKS!

I'll write again tonight. Have a marvelous, wonderful, blessed day!

All my love,

Your prince charming

From: Rebecca
Subject: Re: Sunshine
Date: Saturday, May 9, 2009, 11:10:08 AM EDT
To: Bob

Hi again my prince charming!

Thank you baby for that most wonderful e-mail this morning. You are so thoughtful and kind and loving to me. I have never been so loved either. I remember in an earlier e-mail you would tell me, "Oh how God loves you Rebecca!" I know He does, my love. He gave me -- YOU. I am so happy that you were thinking about us almost all night, because I was too! Now I am very sleepy :-)

Yes, my sweetheart, we have so much to talk about! I am visualizing us -- talking face to face -- looking into each other's eyes and seeing all the love we have for each other. We will talk about everything -- about our wedding -- about each other -- and all of our plans. I will cherish every single moment with you.

You are so considerate and think of everything, which I love! Thanks for sending the phone numbers! I also want to give you Barb and Fred's cell phone numbers, just so you will have them. And, of course you have my home and cell phone numbers.

I am finishing up the packing today. Last minute things. I am SO EXCITED!!! Yes, baby, I will call you Monday along the way, and when we arrive at the hotel in Richmond for the evening, so you will know we have arrived safely.

Then Tuesday, my precious Bob, I will see you -- the one I love. I bless you, and I bless the day we see each other, and I bless the day I become your wife.

All my love,

Sunshine Rebecca's Red Rose

From: Bob
Subject: My love and prayers
Date: Saturday, May 9, 2009, 10:55:55 PM EDT
To: Rebecca

Hi again Sunshine, my Rebecca West!

Maybe you will get this tomorrow morning before you leave for church.

I don't have the words that will adequately describe the love and happiness I have for you, and it was amplified to a greater degree during our phone visit tonight. And darling, you are exactly the right height for me. God truly created you to fit in my arms, as you said. Thank you for telling me.

I will say "goodnight" again and go on to bed. I imagine you're going to be very busy tomorrow answering questions at church about the announcement you're going to have made, and you will be busy tomorrow afternoon and evening getting ready for the trip. And I will be busy tomorrow too. I still have things to do before you get here. You and Bette should go to bed early tomorrow night if possible, since you're leaving so early Monday morning. So I won't be sending you an e-mail tomorrow. The next time we talk will be on the phone while you're on the trip.

Get some rest, darling. Enjoy your trip. You and Bette and Patzi will be in my prayers.

All my love and devotion,

Your Prince Charming

From Rebecca's Autobiography...

We drove the rest of the way to Brevard, North Carolina, where Bob lives. We were almost there. Just two or three more miles! We were on State Highway 280 when it happened. We came over a rise and there it was: the most majestic scene I had ever seen in my life!!!

Remember the dream I had in May 2008 with the sun shining behind the tall mountains? In the dream I had been running through water and thickets, and then came upon the tall mountain with the brightest sun I had ever seen covering the whole sky! Well, here it was May 2009, exactly one year later, and I was looking at the real thing! I cried at the beauty and splendor of it all! My dream was a reality. This was just one of the ways God was showing me that I was where I belonged, and it brought such peace and joy to me.

We had agreed to meet Bob at McDonald's Restaurant in Brevard. Bob's house is "up the mountain" and he would lead us there. I was getting so excited as we entered McDonald's parking lot!

We drove to the back of the parking lot and there he was! He was dressed in black jeans, a green T-shirt and a black baseball cap, and leaning against the back of his Subaru Outback station wagon just as relaxed as I have ever seen anyone! My first thought was "This is a confident man!"

Needless to say, I was impressed!

We parked beside his car. Bette was in the driver's seat on the side facing Bob. Bob had not seen me yet. I got out of the passenger seat and walked around the back toward the side where Bob was already giving Bette a hug and thanking her for bringing me to him. When I got to that side I stopped and just stood there by the back of the car. Bob looked back and saw me for the first time. He told me later that it was as if I was saying, 'Well... here I am!'

I just stood there. Bob walked toward me...

As women, we want to look good for the man we love. I wanted to look spectacular for Bob! I wanted to "knock his socks off!" For the last few hours before we arrived in Brevard, I was checking my hair, and putting on more make up and lipstick hour after hour. I was excited and wanted to make a great impression on this man! I remember I had on black dress pants, black tee top, and a beautiful burgundy jacket, with silver jewelry. I wore myself out fussing over how I looked! I was expecting him to say, "Wow! You're beautiful", or something like that when he saw me for the first time. But the first words out of his mouth were, "May I kiss you?"

And I said, "Yes."

I think it was the longest and sweetest kiss in history!

He seemed oblivious to my appearance! But knowing Bob as I do now, he was looking past the make up and clothes into the real me, my spirit.

I loved it. I felt so wonderful in his arms. I felt so much love and care there. It was exactly what I had longed for. He has strong arms and I felt as if I had waited for him all of my life. I had met my soul mate.

In his arms I was home.

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