Rebecca West: Words & Music

The Process of Grieving

So many times, I really thought that I was finished with the process of grieving over my divorce, to find out that I definitely was not through with this season of grieving. Just when I thought I had made huge progress in letting go of the situation and forgiving, here it comes again. Pain and tears, and thoughts of yesterday.

I have found out our grief shows itself in many ways, long after the pain of divorce or whatever situation you have found yourself. After five years of being divorced, one night I had a dream. I know this dream was from God. In the dream I was trying to "shut the back door" of the house where I grew up. I struggled, and after three times, I was able to shut the door and lock it.

When I woke up, my heart was pounding and I was literally out of breath! I did not sleep the rest of the night. The next day, I felt a sense of relief in my spirit, knowing that God was showing me that the process of grieving was finally over. I had finally shut the door to my painful past.

The next morning, an e-mail was sent that reminded me of my past, but I had an answer for it now. Right out loud I said, "I have shut the door!" What an awesome feeling! And I went on with my day with the joy of the Lord in my heart!

The process of grieving manifests itself in so many different ways, because we all have different personalities and show our grief differently. It takes time. It takes a lot of prayer and trusting God to get through it all. But that's the way we make progress through our grieving -- by running to God.

I am reminded of the scripture in Psalm 119:147: "I anticipated the dawning of the morning and cried (in childlike prayer); I hoped in Your word" (Amplified).

When we come through the night of despair -- we know that there will be the dawning of a new day. It's in His word, and He is faithful. The process of grieving may take some time, but God will be with you every step of the way, and He will lead you into the Sonlight of the morning. Follow Him. He knows the way.

~ Rebecca